After returning home this weekend from a coaching conference where I sat a lot, I decided to go for a walk to a local store and had a back spasm so bad I thought my leg was going to give out. I stretched my back and put a gel on to take away the pain. The spasm returned later that night and into Monday. My lower back pain went from an aching whisper to a big shout.
I spent the next day putting on a heating pad, more gels, did more stretching, and took some Advil. I decided to ask for some healing energy and positive thoughts from friends on Facebook. Many of my friends sent me kind messages, energy, and love. One friend wrote, “Sending healing energy and suggesting you listen to the messages your lower back has for you.”
Throughout the rest of the night that my back was aching, I used meditation to adjust to and release the discomfort by creating visual images that could penetrate muscles, heart and mind. I listened to my back and what it has been trying to tell me for months and I have been ignoring.
How long have I carried (back) pain, not just in my body, but in my mind? What’s cracking, restructuring, and rebuilding inside and out? When was the last time I allowed myself the rest I so deserve?
Certainly, something that causes any kind of pain – mental, emotional, or physical – must be questioned if I am truly to move beyond it. What is lodged so deep in my spine? What or who am I storing and agreeing to painfully hold onto?
It is time to push past the pain, the drama, the unspoken, and LISTEN. It is time to really listen to my back. It is time to move forward peacefully. I have ignored the whispers of back pain and now my back clearly has a message for me. I am still listening.
I love that my back pain has a treasure for me – a message of love. I am open to receiving it. Amen.
Mary Anne