I wrote a blog post about reading a book while on vacation about a writer, speaker, and therapist who was “seeking peace.” The author needed to take time to find meaning again and take time out from everything in her life. I resonated with the book because I too was seeking peace. I was feeling burnt out at work, in my business, and living in the Bronx. I wanted respite and peace. I knew that six days in the mountains would provide me with the quiet space I needed to replenish. My partner and I spent days going for walks, swimming in local lakes and creeks, reading, and journaling.
We had planned to spend the second part of our vacation in Atlantic City. While a stark contrast from the quiet peaceful mountain views, we had tickets to go see Melissa Etheridge in concert. Plus, a few days on the beach and swimming in the ocean seemed like a relaxing way to spend a few days.
So, after we completed the first part of the vacation, we repacked the car for Atlantic City. We started driving and as we got onto the New Jersey Turnpike, I plugged in my iPhone to listen to music in the car. As soon as I heard the music, I turned to my partner and said, “I forgot the tickets.” Then I began crying. (If you have ever driven on I95 in the Bronx, you would understand.) My partner said we will turn around and get them. I said I felt terrible and the tears kept coming. I couldn’t stop myself from crying. Was it because it would add at least two more hours of commuting and crossing the George Washington Bridge again? Was it because I pride myself on being organized and felt like I failed? Was it because I just wanted to get out of the city and be on the beach? I think it was all of it. My partner was calm and wanted to make the best of the situation. She suggested buying lunch at our local diner and was very encouraging the whole ride back to the Bronx.
It all worked out perfect. We had lunch, drove to Atlantic City, saw an amazing show, and spent two days on the beach. Here I was seeking peace and by the end of vacation I was finding love – again. I realized the peace I was seeking was within and that I needed to be reminded of that.
It’s easy to find peace in the quiet uninterrupted moments. Seeking peace in the chaotic forgetful moments is where the work comes in. And finding love is a gift better than any concert in the world.
May we always seek peace and find love.
Mary Anne
This is dedicated to my partner, Lorene, who reminded me just how easy it is to be peace & love. I am very grateful.